Holidays

Halloween is not usually a big diet buster for me because I'm not big on candy, however sometimes I find myself mindlessly chewing a twix because it's there. This year I'm attempting to talk all 3 kids into selling their candy to the orthodontist. It cannot be good to inundate their little bodies with more sugar.
Well I am getting everyone in their costumes for school. BTW..this will be my last fat Halloween.;)

better

I have been fully conscious of my eating since Monday. It feels good. I was up quite a bit by then but today I am six lbs lighter. . .sad i'm still above beginning weight.

Good news my baby sis had her first child and he's beautiful.:)

Reality

I realized why the scale isn't going down though I've been working out so hard. I learned this of myself by watching 'Biggest Loser". I have traded one addiction for another(smoking for eating). When I used to feel that lonely or empty or stressed or anxious feeling I used to grab a cigarette. Now I put food in my mouth. Awareness is key. I'm changing my self talk. There has been a gain of 15 lbs from the day I quit smoking to this day(two months!!!) I am changing this. I understand there is a metabolism shift involved so I may never win this challenge but it will be worth it for me because I will learn more about myself and start heading the weight in the right direction..down.

hey

I was trying to get home before the week was up but I had to work late. I hope this doesn't ruin my chances.

1 mth down

One month and up 1.6. I'm not too worried because I know my body is changing with my consistent workouts. I'll update the measurements on Tuesday

Great job to all the big losers out there. I need to know what you're eating.

WTF?

I have worked out so hard for almost three weeks straight now. My body is feeling strong and I can see my muscle definition. My friend, who is a boy, says my legs 'feel like rocks'. The scale says I've gained two lbs. ?????

Concert

Dierks Bentley and myself
Well I ripped myself apart for what I looked like last night comparing myself to the little 90 lb girls in white tank tops ready to flirt with anyone. The negative self-talk gets to end NOW. I am beautiful. I am strong. I am doing what it takes. I had fun.

Commitment

I have to say that commitment doesn't make sense sometimes. I have stuck with the Chalean Extreme program now for two weeks. Most of the time I haven't felt like it until it ended and I have worked hard. My weight is stuck, which I know is because of my not perfect eating but my body has changed. My arms are strong. I have a dent by a tricep muscle. My legs are strong. I have less jiggle. I am really staying committed to one day at a time and trying not to get caught up in the scale drama.
I call these little things NSV(non-scale victories). I think they are motivation to keep going even when the scale doesn't move.
I am going to the Dierks Bentley concert tonight and I have backstage passes. In my old life my weight would have prevented me from going for it but I choose life!

'Weight' a minute

I'm starting to see that the doctor may be right with her diagnosis of metabolic syndrome. I have been working hard, no soda, building big muscles and my weight has barely moved. I am starting an eating plan and we'll see if it moves on the scale. My biceps are hard as rocks along with my quads and my butt is lifted already so I guess those are the things I get to look at, though they won't win me money. :/ Oh well, I'm committed!!!

Commitment

I am committed to my journey of health and well-being. I got busy today and didn't get my workout in this morning. NormallyI would have gone to bed, said I'd do it tomorrow and it wouldn't happen. It is 10 pm and I just got done with my workout. I feel strong. I can do this. I AM doing this. Yay me!

BTW...I haven't had a soda for 11 days and have not had a cigarette for 30!

Naked truth

Okay for today I got real. I got naked. I decided it was time to take a real good look at what I had done to my body as far as measurements go.
Wow! You know it was surprising to see how much I haven't changed since the last time, which was probably 6 years ago. The only part of me that has changed is the ab area, which I knew. The doctor told me that would be the by-product of my stress and the hormone cortisol increasing from lack of sleep. I don't feel that bad about my starting point though. It is do-able.
I am starting a new workout routine tomorrow and the video came with those lovely fat-testing calipers. The last time I used those was when I was on the drill team in high school.
Back then I had about 13 % which was lean and now I'm up to 24 % which is on the high side of average. I was surprised by that so I measured 5 times!
I'm not just looking for a number drop on the scale but an all round healthy life and body.
Here's to all of us Big Losers.:)

Wait, you're not going to stop life while I do this?

This is different than any other time I've committed to lose weight so I'm taking that as a good thing.
I don't have an exact plan or 'diet' I'm following but I've learned enough to know what does and what doesn't work for me.n
The first two days have been pretty easy and I'm not missing soda too bad. It's amazing how easy things become habits and how old habits die hard. I haven't been able to work out yet which is weird. I think I'm learning patience with my life too and that is something I need.
A day in my life is waking up about 6, getting showered, waking daughter, getting ready, making breakfast, waking boys, taking sis to school, going to school myself for three hours, coming home to homework, working out or running errands, picking up kids, helping with homework, making dinner, cleaning up and then heading to work until 12:30 am. I deserve to be patient with myself sometimes. I have a bit on my plate.
Well, I hope the challenge is going well for others. I'm going to walk down to the school to pick up my boys.:)

So the contest starts tomorrow officially. I sufficiently ate enough for a family of four today so tomorrow I should feel good and hungry,;)
The weight thing is freaking me out. This is a perfect time to begin. I picked up the awful habit of smoking after my divorce and didn't completely quit until the day before my birthday on the 14th. So since quitting only a bit over two weeks ago I have gained over 12 lbs. That has been really hard for me but it's not worth the killing my body with nicotine so I can spike my metabolism a few points.
I am heading to bed with a firm commitment to do what it takes. It's my time.

Pre-test;)

This is it. My blog about my countdown from 34 to 35(or is that count up?)
I am excited to start the Biggest Loser Challenge but I'm horrified about letting someone else but me know what I weigh. That will probably be the hardest part.
I was always thin as a child and teen but for me I wasn't thin enough. I struggled with anorexia through high school and when I married young and got pregnant right away my roller coaster started.
So from marriage to now I have weighed everywhere from 135-247. The highest weight was at ninth months pregnant, but still I've been obsessed with it.
I lost about 40 lbs after my divorce and now with a hormone problem 20 have crept back on. I exercise 3 times a week but will be bumping it up. I may have to work twice as hard to combat the health effects of what I've done to my body but it will be worth it.
The cougar thing is a joke. I've been told at 34 I'm still a kitten and I don't become a cougar until 35. I'm not interested in younger men but I think the whole idea of a term for single women over 35 is hilarious. :)