WTF?

I have worked out so hard for almost three weeks straight now. My body is feeling strong and I can see my muscle definition. My friend, who is a boy, says my legs 'feel like rocks'. The scale says I've gained two lbs. ?????

Concert

Dierks Bentley and myself
Well I ripped myself apart for what I looked like last night comparing myself to the little 90 lb girls in white tank tops ready to flirt with anyone. The negative self-talk gets to end NOW. I am beautiful. I am strong. I am doing what it takes. I had fun.

Commitment

I have to say that commitment doesn't make sense sometimes. I have stuck with the Chalean Extreme program now for two weeks. Most of the time I haven't felt like it until it ended and I have worked hard. My weight is stuck, which I know is because of my not perfect eating but my body has changed. My arms are strong. I have a dent by a tricep muscle. My legs are strong. I have less jiggle. I am really staying committed to one day at a time and trying not to get caught up in the scale drama.
I call these little things NSV(non-scale victories). I think they are motivation to keep going even when the scale doesn't move.
I am going to the Dierks Bentley concert tonight and I have backstage passes. In my old life my weight would have prevented me from going for it but I choose life!

'Weight' a minute

I'm starting to see that the doctor may be right with her diagnosis of metabolic syndrome. I have been working hard, no soda, building big muscles and my weight has barely moved. I am starting an eating plan and we'll see if it moves on the scale. My biceps are hard as rocks along with my quads and my butt is lifted already so I guess those are the things I get to look at, though they won't win me money. :/ Oh well, I'm committed!!!

Commitment

I am committed to my journey of health and well-being. I got busy today and didn't get my workout in this morning. NormallyI would have gone to bed, said I'd do it tomorrow and it wouldn't happen. It is 10 pm and I just got done with my workout. I feel strong. I can do this. I AM doing this. Yay me!

BTW...I haven't had a soda for 11 days and have not had a cigarette for 30!

Naked truth

Okay for today I got real. I got naked. I decided it was time to take a real good look at what I had done to my body as far as measurements go.
Wow! You know it was surprising to see how much I haven't changed since the last time, which was probably 6 years ago. The only part of me that has changed is the ab area, which I knew. The doctor told me that would be the by-product of my stress and the hormone cortisol increasing from lack of sleep. I don't feel that bad about my starting point though. It is do-able.
I am starting a new workout routine tomorrow and the video came with those lovely fat-testing calipers. The last time I used those was when I was on the drill team in high school.
Back then I had about 13 % which was lean and now I'm up to 24 % which is on the high side of average. I was surprised by that so I measured 5 times!
I'm not just looking for a number drop on the scale but an all round healthy life and body.
Here's to all of us Big Losers.:)

Wait, you're not going to stop life while I do this?

This is different than any other time I've committed to lose weight so I'm taking that as a good thing.
I don't have an exact plan or 'diet' I'm following but I've learned enough to know what does and what doesn't work for me.n
The first two days have been pretty easy and I'm not missing soda too bad. It's amazing how easy things become habits and how old habits die hard. I haven't been able to work out yet which is weird. I think I'm learning patience with my life too and that is something I need.
A day in my life is waking up about 6, getting showered, waking daughter, getting ready, making breakfast, waking boys, taking sis to school, going to school myself for three hours, coming home to homework, working out or running errands, picking up kids, helping with homework, making dinner, cleaning up and then heading to work until 12:30 am. I deserve to be patient with myself sometimes. I have a bit on my plate.
Well, I hope the challenge is going well for others. I'm going to walk down to the school to pick up my boys.:)